I cheat ツ

I tell myself
that life has moved on

& bright future depends on forgotten past

I sulk, I crib

but my cheating continues

I Cheat myself

I tell myself
I do not care

I do not love

I will not call you

I do not miss you

Things don’t matter

You don’t matter

And my cheating continues

& I do not ask myself ‘m i sure?’

I have no regrets
Things will be fine
I can buy back my past

And my cheating continues

I cheat myself & I do not ask my mind 'how?'