I Never Loved You !!

Let me confess today

I never loved you.

I just loved your smile,

As they are reason for my happiness

As they make the world a beautiful place to live

As they speak the unspoken

And they give me the reason to continue my life.

But, let me confess today

I never loved you.

I just loved your eyes

As they are most beautiful creation of God

The nature, the trees, the moon, the sun, the lakes, the mountains

The wind, the sunshine, the flowers, the fragrance

Everything lost attraction, when I look into your eyes.

But, let me confess today

I never loved you.

I just loved your heart

The emotions it carries is a treasure that one can have

The love it has is what I want to wear for the rest of my life

And your heartbeats are the reasons to continue my life

But, let me confess today

I never loved you.

I just loved the mess in you

I just accepted the way you are

I just love your hand, your leg, your hair, your fingers,

Your ears, your hair and just head to toe

But, I never loved you.

I want to hug you for what you are

And I want to kiss you for what you are

I want to hold you in my arms

Kiss your eyes

Kiss your nose

Kiss your body

Hold you close, and I want to kiss your smile.

But, let me confess today

I never loved you.

becoming you !!

Is it your mesmerizing smile
the ocean eyes
golden hair
your lips

Or your innocence
your whisper
your heart
your soft touch

What is drifting me away
from me

I kept wondering how
you touched my soul
with your eyes
with your smile
with your 'connect'
and with your soul

I held my heart long
ignored my love for you
until i realized
I love you
coz I love you

No point omitting my own existence
i have become you
i feel being you
they feel me being you

The heartache is dying away
for i am free
uphold my existence
of being you...!!

Happy Birthday...!!

Happy  Birthday Shee...!! A very happy birthday...!!

Want to make a wish today for the "very special you"... but you know what...

I am confused again, as usual
What do I wish for you on this auspicious day...!!

You got everything in life
The courage - unparallel, the smile - ever vibrant
Mom so caring
Father so inspirational
Husband so loving
And son - the rainbow of your life

So what should I wish for you today...
Just continue to be happy ever
Keep smiling
Keep spreading smiles
And, just be the way you are
You are the best
Let me accept it today... You are simply the best

And you know what
You have become the best since 5th Oct 2009
The moment  you met me, your life changed
You became wiser
You became happier
You became knowledgeable
You became understanding
You started appreciating what you have got
You started loving the world
You started loving the people
You started understanding the life
You appreciated the meaning of friendship

You got blessed
You got lucky
Your stars changed for the good

I am really confused now
What do I wish for you sweety...
When you already got the best in your life in me

I am confused again, as usual
What do I wish for you on this auspicious day...!!
Ahh God, she got me, what shall I wish for her today...!!
 

Few Quotes

Some quotes that you can NOT relate to:

- Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard.
- Do not let the pain make you hate.
- Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness.
- Take pride - even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.
- Home is supposedly a bond between you and that one certain place.
- टूटा फूटा ही सही घऱ बार होना चाहिए।


 

Life...!!

Life is

A collection of thoughts to wound you
Some shattered dreams
Some shuttered eyes
And some broken promises

Life is
Some water... in eyes
Some rain... to hide waters
A rainbow... never seen
And some relations... never understood

Life is
A wretched feeling
A journey with lost map
Some ifs and buts
And some conditions apply

Life is
Being alone in crowd
Running away from oneself
Some hollow baggage relations
And some never to be met expectations...!!
 

ख़ुशी तलाशती ज़िन्दगी...!!

रुक सी गयी है ज़िन्दगी
थम सी गयी है ज़िन्दगी
उस बारिश की मिटटी की तरह
जम सी गयी है ज़िन्दगी

दूसरों की खुशियोंमें खुश रहना
रह गयी हैज़िन्दगी
अपनी ख़ुशी तलाशती
रह गयी हैज़िन्दगी

ना किनारा कोई ना नाव कोई
बहता पानी ले जा रहा है कहीं
रुक सी गयी है ज़िन्दगी
थम सी गयी है ज़िन्दगी

रुक सी गयी है ज़िन्दगी
थम सी गयी है ज़िन्दगी

अपने छोड़ देतेहैं साथ
रिश्तों से उठगया है विश्वास
बस हूँ मैं अकेली
ये बन गया है विश्वास

रुक सी गयी है ज़िन्दगी
थम सी गयी है ज़िन्दगी
उस बारिश की मिटटी की तरह
जम सी गयी है ज़िन्दगी

- Nidhi Gupta -

अधूरे पल...!!

तुम क्या लेकर आये थे,

और क्या लेकर जाओगे…

वक़्त कहाँ चाहिए ये सोचने के लिए,

इक बिखरी हुई रूह को।

कुछ अधूरे ख्वाब,

कुछ अधूरा एहसास,

और अधूरा प्यार…

कुछ अधूरी इज्ज़त,

कुछ अधूरी सोच,

और कुछ अधूरी हसरतें...

हथेली में भरी निराशाएं,

आस्मां भरी नफरतें,

ये तनहाइयाँ…

और कुछ अधूरी तमन्नाएँ…।

जीवन की अनसुलझी परिभाषा,

और इक अधूरी ज़िन्दगी…।

इतना कुछ तो है साथ ले जाने को…

बहुत होगा ये सब ऐ खुदा,

शायद इक और जन्म बिताने को…

वर्ना कमी थोडेना है तेरे पास,

और न ही कभी कंजूसी की…

तूने ये सब मुझ पे लुटाने की…… ।।

an honest dedication.... LOL !!

आज मेरी ज़िन्दगी में ये कैसा दिन आया है

चुड़ैल का साथ मैंने तीन साल निभाया है

वो हसीं वो प्यार एक प्यारा सुखद एहसास

जो जाता रहा मेरी ज़िन्दगी से तेरे आने के बाद

आज भी चाहत वो दिन वापस पाने की

चुड़ैल के चंगुल से निकल भाग जाने की

पर कहाँ वो होता है जो इंसान ने चाहा है

किस्मत ने मुझे कदम कदम पे रुलाया है

तेरे नज़दीक से भी निकल जाने पर भी

एक अजीब डर सताता है

कहीं तू चुडैलपना न दिखा दे

और मेरा शरीर सेहर जाता है

गर ऑफिस में न भी होऊं

तो सपनो में तू आती है.... और

अपना जलवा फिर तू मुझे डरा के दिखाती है

I cheat ツ

I tell myself
that life has moved on

& bright future depends on forgotten past

I sulk, I crib

but my cheating continues

I Cheat myself

I tell myself
I do not care

I do not love

I will not call you

I do not miss you

Things don’t matter

You don’t matter

And my cheating continues

& I do not ask myself ‘m i sure?’

I have no regrets
Things will be fine
I can buy back my past

And my cheating continues

I cheat myself & I do not ask my mind 'how?'

Keep Smiling ツ

तुझसे मिलना ज़रूरी न था

तुझे जानने के लिए

या समझने के लिए

तेरी तस्वीरें तेरा दिल बयाँ करती हैं

और तेरी हंसी तेरी मासूमियत

न मिलकर भी यकीं है कि

उस हंसी की खनखनाहट और भी मासूम होगी

तेरी चिठ्ठी से आसां था

तेरी भावनाओ को समझना

वो बारिश की तस्वीर

तुझमें छुपा एक बचपन बयाँ करती है

वो इश्वर की बातें,

दोस्तों की मजबूरियों को समझना,

तेरा 'किसी अपने की खोज',

तेरी ज़िन्दगी की उलझनें बयाँ करता है

अगर कुछ समझ न पाया

वो नियति का खेल

वो दौर जिससे तू गुज़र रहा है ऐ दोस्त

है इंतज़ार तुझसे गुफ्तगू का

तेरी आवाज की खनखनाहट सुनने के लिए

है इंतज़ार तुझसे मिलने का

तेरे ग़म बाँटने के लिए

और अपनी खुशियों में शामिल करने के लिए

यकीं है कि हम मिलेंगे, कहीं न कहीं

क्यूंकि उसने तुझसे एक रिश्ता बनाया है

और फिर, शायद हम एक जरिया हो

तेरी कुछ और मुस्कुराहटो का

World changed.. ?

Looking back I think

so much has changed in life… yep

the locations changed… and

you went far away

I've grown older… and

feelings matured

my love changed… and

became much deeper

your magic changed… and

became more enchanting

seasons changed… but

still wait for your presence here

Friends changed… but

still miss your mesmerizing smile

I changed… but

my heart still beats for you

Like it did years back

And I still love you

coz I love you….ツ

Paarul...ツ

I Pray…

The beautiful relationship begins

Happieeeeness lingers on

Everything becomes fun

I Pray…

Your Love never fades never dies

His care becomes inspiration for you

And your smile chases all his blues

I told you are a gift to the world

And you are a special treasure.. & today..

I Pray…

He becomes a gift you will cherish

And a treasure that shines forever

This is all I have to give you my dear

Some Prayers

Some blessings and

Some wishes… for your happiness….ツ

Congratulations…. ツ

War Inside Me

Can't I go back and stop the war to begin
which hurts me all the time
coz it keeps running all my mind

I am falling down with my tears
Never to stand again
Cursing ownself
How could I let you go just like that

Time we shared was everything of my life
Always felt my angels are around in disguise of your smile
All that mattered was 'you'
All that I cared for was 'you'
Still....
I let you go just like that

Now that you've gone, I feel all alone
Don't find someone to hold me
I am falling down with my tears
Never to stand again

Time also moved on; but left me behind
and I keep thinking...
Can't I go back and stop the war to begin
which hurts me all the time
coz it keeps running all my mind

Unpredictable : The Time

Time starts crawling when I'm unhappy
Ignores my tears
Ignores my implore
To fast forward my life
And hurts me all the time..

They say time flies away
Never told they meant
It flies seeing you happy

They say time is strong
Never told strong ever meant cruel

They say it heals all the wounds
Never told they meant
It murders you to mend the pain..

Your Smile ツ

Your Smile...
Like a force to admit angels exist
Coz I've seen one
that also chases my sorrows away

Your Smile...
Like a spur to live my life again
Coz its worth ages to live
with contention...

Your Smile...
Enlightens the world,
Melts away the fear and
Gives me the strength

Your Smile
Soothes my soul n takes away my heart
And I surrender happily

Your Smile...
Makes me feel a thunderstorm
& forces me to fall in love
yet again...

I Don't Care !!

I feel a world of you & me
Coz we share a bond dis world can't see
So ignorant d world is..

You know my words a while before i speak
And express a while before i feel..
Coz we share a bond dis world can't see
So ignorant d world is..

Yes, I paste these epics from 'somewhere'
No one realizes
I just pour it frm my heart

When I sit back n think
I had a chance to fight
And I missed it..
I scripted my own lyf
& really don't care dat
So ignorant d world is

Sparkling You !

Bright is the world..
When the Sun shines,
And I'm blessed bcoz..
You make my world brighter.

Lovely the milieu..
When rain comes down,
But divine is my life..
When you're around.

Everyone is happy..
When rainbow comes around,
And rainbow is elated bcoz..
It sees you smile.

Moon enlightens the dark corners..
While you illuminate the souls,
Such is your veneer..
And is your allure.

I Love You !

For You My Friend !

Yes I never saw you, I never met you
Does it stop me saying 'Thank You'
For all you did

Oceans don't stop one
Feeling the heart apart
Distance never frightened love
Traverse the sinister even

I thank you for invisible support
I thank you for untold promises
Your unseen smile makes me happy
And voice happier

Thank you for fond memories
And for feelings I'll always treasure

Thank you for being you
Like gift from above
Thank you for everything
And give you all my love ツ

I Love You !

 

You are sweet fragrance of fresh roses
Whose presence makes everything smiling

Here or there, wherever you appear
Just spread the innocence sheer

I'm happy, no one can steal you
I'm privileged that I can feel you
When I need to cry, you lend me a shoulder
And a smile from you chases all my blues

When you're around, everything's fun
Coz you are answer to a special prayer

You'll find me singing, when life is a song for you
You'll find me struggling, when something goes dead wrong

My love can never fade, never die
I say this to you coz thats all I've to give you

I Love you.. coz.. I Love you ツ

The Love !

The love that started like soft hum of prayers
To turn only into screams
Becomes lifeless amid broken promises, bitter accusations and allegations
Walk away from once flourishing feeling
Dead love can’t be mummified
Walk away fast, do not look back
At its distorted face